hmm.. so many things to blog abt, it's gna be a long post for me to spam!

i've seriously misplaced my trust.. on ADELINE. -.-
argh argh argh argh!
nehmind, for more details, read her lj..

shall not crap abt how much i've studied and my studying process since bt2 is over lol.
shall crap abt how i'm so gna fail GP and EC again..
...
i'm so gna fail them both *nods*
got back math paper today, did better than i thought, i screwed up qn 12 as i thought hahah..
at least i got one mark! xP

gen tan gave us a pep talk today, more like a scaring session :/
we've only 55 days left till prelims and this thought left me quite emo for awhile after EC tutorial esp since i din really understand IT
T.T
tt's why i wasn't TT happy when i got back math the following lesson..
now i'm getting emo again -.-
getting gd grades at math is crap.. wad i really wanna do well at are GP and EC and i shall self-quote: " i'm so gna fail GP and EC again.."
argh..

the scholarship thing today made me realise tt i really really dno wad i want.
i look at tingwei and adeline, both of them were like "i'm going for this talk and tt one."
but i'm like, wad's this? wad does it do?
i feel pekcek just asking those qns.. i STILL dno wad i wanna do..
ttj we're in the same boat..
):

did some CIP recording on isp today.
realised tt i've got v little hours like 12 only? ji sian.. after 2 yrs and i look back,
i realise tt i've wasted alot of my time doing nth..
this makes me wonder if i'm just gna let my life like waste away next time..
rot my whole life away.. if only i'm a vegetable, at least i'm still useful even when i rot lol.

sometimes, there's just this empty feeling inside tt makes me dun wanna do anything.
empty and sinking feeling, just totally emo i guess.
during such times, i'm only pdtive in blogging lol like now..
is it the post-blocks blues? how come like everyone (aka mar and me) are feeling so sianified and emo?
argh, i think it's just stress.
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